At the risk of sounding like a horrible cliche, today has opened my eyes. It really wasn't until now that I realize how truly precious life really is.....

It's amazing to take a step back, outside yourself, your life, and your own insignificant stresses and realize how lucky we are, and how stupid we are for letting the little things get in the way of a much grander life ahead.

Case in point...I was having a bad day in school, becoming more and more stressed with everyday that I don't study and everyday closer my multiple midterms get, and thinking about mine and Brad's relationship and the bumpy road we are on right now. I was feeling down, so I decided to call up one of my best friends Erin to go for lunch and shopping, a girl's best remedy.
As soon as she spoke the words "Cole is dead" suddenly, everything I ever thought in my life to be important suddenly became so insignificant. How selfish have I been? Here I am worried about some stupid test, or some weekly disagreement that a few weeks from now Brad and I won't even remember about, and our good friend Cole is gone!
I was almost sick. Having never fully experienced death (except for grandparents when I was younger) this is a new and horrifying experience to me.
I feel so guilty for even worrying about myself right now.
The only thoughts in my mind right now are...
Cole. He was so free spirited, and oh how he loved life and definitely knew how to have a good time! Just as Erin said, I know that Cole wouldn't want us crying over him, he'd want us to celebrate his life on his behalf.
Amy. The poor girl, without going into the horrifying details, she had to see Cole after the accident...just the thought of it makes me nauseous.... I pray for her
Erin. The closest of all 3 to me personally, she was very close to Amy and Cole, the three of them were always together and I know that she really wanted to go to Thailand with them. They say death is a hard thing to deal with, but she has many people that love her to help her through this.

Now that I think back, in September, when Amy and Cole were leaving for their grand adventure in Thailand, Cole stopped by BP's to say goodbye to everyone. We all loved him so much, and were very sad to see him leave. He promised us that he would be back, even if just to say "hi"; I remember thinking that this was the last time we were going to see him, that for some reason he wasn't going to come back.
I guess I just thought it would be for a better reason...

So here is to Cole, atleast he went out strong, with a bang, and having the time of his life. I think we all wish we could go the same...
So here is to Cole (*Cheers!*) He would want it that way!


















R.I.P Cole Boner....we all love you and will never forget you.